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Dear Joshua,

It's Wednesday, I didn't write yesterday like I planned to. I had to
write a long proposal and 100,000,000 messages on the fucking
computer. I am in the caf\'e across from the laundry waiting for the
next cycle. How exciting.

My love for you must be waning; I've only told three people about you
so far today. It might be because I only left the house for two hours
so far.  Well, it's only 6PM, there's still time\dots 

You were right; I was at KLUBSTITUTE Tuesday night. I got back about
2AM. I called but the phone rang four times then I got a busy signal.
I have made so many phone calls this month I'm really afraid I won't
be able to pay it. The only thing that stops me from calling is that
plus knowing you'll call me again. You don't know how much that makes
me feel good.

When you called Monday night you made me so happy all I could do was
laugh. You are so funny, and your voice is so sexy. Every day I can
only think of how soon you'll be here (and how soon you'll leave, boo
hoo!). We haven't had as much phonesex as I thought we would have by
now, but somehow that's OK, because I think it might drive me more
crazy rather than being ``satisfying''. Though that one time was
very, very hot (I can still remember it).

This morning I went to the movies. The NEW STRAND THEATER has \$2
movies before 6PM. Today it was a triple-bill (for \$2!): UNIVERSAL
SOLDIER, TERMINATOR 2, TETSUO THE IRON MAN. Diet never showed up,
which is odd. I stayed only for UNIVERSAL SOLDIER. It was very, very
dumb, but somehow OK. It was a very crude story, no attention to
details and all that. Many funny jokes, some intentional. I was
surprised to find van Damme genuinely ``cute''. His character was
goofy, intentionally childish, and of course the obligatory violence.
Yes it was as odd a combination as it sounds. He actually acts {\it
worse} than Schwartzenegger! I'm not exactly sure if I'd recommend
it. Hmm\dots hey, I have no taste, I admit it.

So when Diet didn't show up, I left, since I'd seen T2 so recently. I
probably should have stayed, as I didn't do all the stuff I had
planned for today. 

The STRAND is so cool. It is very San Fran. It's been bought by this
weirdo family. It's always got punks and street weirdos in the
audience. There was a cat in the lobby panhandling affection. If you
pet it in the wrong places it got annoyed. I guess it gets enough
attention that it can afford to be fussy. I hope they stay in
business, there was only about 10 people there at 11AM (which is
hardly surprising, this crowd is barely up at that hour).

All I could think about during the movie, was I wanted to be holding
your hand (amongst other things).

I'm trying to make sure I don't have any things to do next week.
There are possibly two meetings, one for probably two hours and one
possibly a dinner in Palo Alto. Plus a zillion phone calls. Plus
reading my email, but I can (and will) put a lot of that off. 

Apparently something Very Bad happened to Teg; he's still in
Minneapolis. I talked to him briefly. He said he'd send me a letter,
so when I get it I'll tell you all about it. Very serious legal
troubles. He wouldn't talk about it over the phone. (Deke is right
when he sez Teg sets up undesirable Control Machines that are his undoing.)

Speaking of Deke -- I talked to his roommate Debby. Deke has totally
weirded out and burned a lot of bridges. I went to Kinko's (stole a
counter) to make copies, and there was Greta and Deke. I asked Deke
what's-up, he sez he's gonna travel after he gets leaves the Rat House
15 Sept. Probably a good choice, since he's got no money, place to
stay, and has in one way or another alienated many of his friends.
I'm glad of his decision too, it means he gets to cool out and get
some distance (very punny) on things and let things settle.

Don't forget to bring the rope and any other fun things you can think
of. I cannot tell if I want to kiss you and sleep tangled up with
you, or fuck loudly and intensely when I next see you. We'll just
have to see what happens\dots 

Well, I haven't exactly been social lately. The first week or so back,
I saw lots of people. Now I'm back to bumping into people in public
places instead. Fine by me I guess. I did go to KLUBSTITUTE this week
and last, and saw Chris both times. He's pretty odd and quiet. I
talked with him for a while. Daniel called me, wasn't able to call him
back, but he was at KLUBSTITUTE. He is so funny; he's like a 15 year
old, chatty like a little girl, wears strange clothes (yellow
ballerina skirts with combat boots, hair glued up into pointy spikes;
Army overalls with too much red lipstick, etc). He thinks Chris is
very hot, though he also thinks about half the males on the planet are
hot (not to demean Chris). He doesn't seem to want to do anything
about the people he thinks are hot though. It's nice to see someone
being a kid, meaning he gets to go to school, play all day long, have
lots of support from everyone around him, and not be crazy, suicidal,
drug-addicted, nuts, etc. I like Daniel, I'll probably go ``on a
date'' with him again (what he calls it). It's fun to hang out with
him because he's so non-serious (he drives most everyone else I know
crazy with his incessant chatter). I'm not sure if you'll like him. 

Our house is stabilizing. Stacy has been gone for a week, camping.
Apparently she's doing fine and is happy. It's good to see Greta
back, as she contributes so much energy to the house. Valerie might
be gone by the time you get here; her mother (lives in NY) just had
an operation to hack out cancer. She's OK, but Valerie wants to go
visit for a while -- maybe months. Dave is assembling his once-junk
car for her to leave. I hope she doesn't go until at least Tuesday
(isn't that selfish) so you can meet her.

Everyone in the house is dead broke. It sucks. We also have more
vehicles in the parking lot than we've ever had. It is very weird. 

Well I'm reduced to rambling, and the laundry is about done. I'm
gonna stop now (7PM). Wow! If you get this on Saturday, you'll be
leaving the day after tomorrow!!

I love you muchly. I just jerked off thinking of you wearing my black
shorts with your dick sticking out the fly and into my mouth! (I'm at
home now, not the caf\'e.)

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